You must write every single day of your life… You must lurk in libraries and climb the stacks like ladders to sniff books like perfumes and wear books like hats upon your crazy heads… may you be in love every day for the next 20,000 days. And out of that love, remake a world.
~ Ray Bradbury
Why Write Every Day?
This weekend I attended a workshop led by the director of my program at Northern Arizona University (MA in Sustainable Communities). Among the many, many bits of wisdom he shared one was echoed by every one of the guest speakers and the author of the text we read: Write Every Day! Writing the thesis is a challenge, especially for folks like me that have not been doing a lot of writing since our undergraduate days. To get in the flow of writing an 80 to 120 page document, one strategy is to put pen to paper — er fingers to keyboard 😛 — and let the words flow. So that’s what I’m doing. I’ve decided to utilize my blog as the platform for this writing. My intent is to engage others, both fellow students and other friends, in conversation about whatever comes through me onto the page.
What Will I Write?
Whatever I want! When I consider what I might write this summer, I think of what’s moving in my life. This summer there are multiple topics that have a great deal of life for me. Here are three that come to mind:
- The Thesis — This summer I am working on my Master’s Thesis. Right now, I have three targets of this work — selecting a Thesis Chair to shepherd me through the process, settling on a topic, and writing my Thesis Proposal (or Prospectus) which is a description of what I intend to study, it’s background in the academic literature, and how I intend to gather data on it. The first two targets can be done simultaneously. I know who I will ask to be my chair and I have a pretty good idea of a few topics around which I have life. Addressing these potential topics may be a good place to start.
- Tapering off my Anti-depressants — This is another HUGE project. For those who don’t know the background: I have struggled with depression for all of my adult life and maybe some of my pre-adult life. I was first diagnosed as a Freshman in college. During my college years I cycled between periods of depression and those of relatively high functioning (I’ve never been clinically “manic” which includes destructive behavior like promiscuous sex, excessive gambling, staying up multiple days and nights, etc.). From 1993 to 2008, I was on medication which created a new emotional/psychological floor (no more depression) and a new “ceiling” (no more joy or elation). I was “stable” — though disconnected from my complete registry of feelings — for all fifteen years. These were pretty productive years for me and, in retrospect, something was missing. During the last several years I was on this medication, my kidney function readings were elevated. In late 2007, my psychiatrist and I decided that I needed to get off the medicine. Then — Guess What? — the depression returned. From 2008 to 2012, I re-entered the depressive/high-functioning cycles. It was a drag. In February 1, 2012 I moved to Flagstaff, AZ to be with my partner, Katie Pierce. The medicine our partnership has provided me is frequent doses of PURE, UNCONDITIONAL LOVE!
As a result…Since I’ve been in “Flag” I have not been depressed! Writing about my gratitude associated with this observation could take 10,000 entries! I have not had depressive symptoms since October of 2011. That means that I’ve been depression-free for almost TWENTY MONTHS! My new doctor and I agreed that this summer is a good time for me to begin to taper off my anti-depressants. This process starts Today! I see value in sharing my observations and insights on this blog as I enter into this transition.
- Finding a Job in Flag – Katie and I have decided that we want to be in Flagstaff for the indefinite future. We want to lay down some strong roots in this community. Part of my desired rootedness is a job here! Katie is blessed to be doing work that she loves in a community of people who care for each other. I want to express my life purpose and generate financial security through work in this city. As with #’s 1 and 2, this is a rich topic!
Well, more writing. I’d enjoy any feedback if you are moved by anything I’ve written. I would enjoy being in dialogue with you! See you tomorrow!
Peace, Love, and ongoing Communicating with Heart!!!